Well let me introduce myself first. Hey guys its Aaryan here from the country inclredibl India. I am a boy from small village having big dreams. I was having such a grrag time achieving those dreams when I was alone. Then as a matter of fact I fell in love with a girl. She was so nice that i instantly fell for her without even seeing her. I saw her first time when we were in relationship. I remember till now the day when i proposed her, it was 30th December 2012. Now let me introduce the girl that I am talking about. Her name letsl say "Mine" ( for security reasons I ain't giving you her original name) was a very cute, simple, lovely and with many more qualities. I fell for her in months by merely talking to her on Facebook. She was all that I wanted not because of anything else but due to the fact that i loved her and the feelings I had for her was never experienced for anyone else in my life. Well to my surprise she accepted my proposal and we were in a relationship on 1st January 2013. For one year everything went well. We had our differences but we handled it very well. I was happy wirh her but I guess she wasn't. After we completed an year she suddenly stopped talking to me without any reasons. I tried to reach out her friends they all just removed me from their life. I was completely heartbroken. You know just a mede feelings of losing someone whom u can die for can just crush you from inside. Well that was the first time I felt like dieing. And yes you all are thinking right I am not that kind of guy so is very strong and can withstand anything , but the fact is i could i withstood anything except for the fact that I lost her. I was completely into her, all the things i did was for her and me only. This destroyed me from inside out. I was in depression, anger consumed me, loneliness was eating me from inside, it was like i was going to die in few days. But somehow I survived. It was the first time i felt that huge amount of pain in my life. And guess what I somehow survived. But the cost at which i survived was not at all less. My all entrance examination for engineering was a disaster, not because i didn't knew anything but because I didn't answered most of the question. All I kept thinking most of my time was what did I do wrong, what was my mistake etc.  Well this was the first time she destroyed me. After that I took admission in a college for persuing B. Tech in mechanical engineering. Well in hostel I cried at night when noone was there in my room for months. I didn't wanted to do anything in that college, I was delressed. I seeked for medical attention but that also didn't helped. To br true it made me feel a bit better but then I thought itsi just a waste of time and money so I discontinued that idea. Well I started keeping myself busy in various works that i thought would help me to forget her but i was wrong, but in return what it did was that it made me feel muxh better than before so I continued going in that direction. After first year everything was going well, I was recovering well. I wasn't happy although but the fact was I wasn't sad too. I closed myself for everyone whom I didn't knew personally. I had developed trust issues, anger issures, and many other bad habits. I still remember in the first six months of my college I was mostly drunk all the time due to my pain. But everything started to get organised, i was, you can say kind of happy without her. Then in the month of april ending she unblocked me from Facebook and said sorry for what she did. Well in simple words she dragged me to the same spot where she left me before. I was finished the moment she messaged me. It killed me from inside. I guess my sufferings was not over till then. Well she had moved on but not me. Somehow i still had feelings for her that time. Don't know what is love but the same thing was killing me. After that she was a hostory. She was gone again. Waao i was sooooo happy from outside that not even my family or best friends could sense that i was being assaulted by each and every second. I had been killed from inside over a million times till then. It took me whole third year and half of the fourth year to get out of that. And guess what she again came back to my life. This time again my stupid heart wanted to get her back and as a matter of fact I got her back too. I constantly told her the fact that what you did last time don't do it again because I'll not sirvisu this time. She promised me many things with a promise that she'll never leave me. But I guess God doesn't want me to live she left me again and as a matter of fact she left me for her selfish reason. ItsI the last time that she'll do this to me. I'll  not be able to withstand this. And this will be my ultimate sacrifice for her. Last thing I want to say her that I love her and i can't wait to let turn this love feeling into hate one so bbu i love her and yoully never be able to see me again. Be happy always. Don't bother searching me because I'll be long gone before you can do anything.